dumb com is back!!
ok..today's entry will be special..it's about my brother, my 1 and only real brother.
I had my music lessons as usual today. While walking home, I saw Kang wei, my neighbour. He asked me about my brother and how was he. I didn't know what to reply because I don't know anything about him.
Kangwei then sighed and told me, give your brother a call, he's very lonely now.
I was like, "HUH?"
Kangwei told me his gf's friend knows my brother, and told him my brother has very little friends now and he's quite lonely. Kangwei told me to call my brother and chat with him. I was telling him that my brother doesn't even want to come home, then he told me that it was my dad who chased him away. EXPECTED..i know it's always my dad..
Then I began to realised what type of person I am, what type of sister I am. I'm a fucked-up sister man...My brother moved out since 2003. I don't even msg or call him, he's the one who called me sometimes. He even came home just this May 2005 and gave me $50 to spend when he's in financial difficulties. I didn't know my brother is lonely, I thought he was happy being who he is now. I forgot that he's not staying with us anymore. I forgot about my brother, totally forgotten about him. I forgot he needs family love too...I'm so fucked-up can..
what type of sister I am??? I don't even care for my brother...I don't even know anything about him. I can only peep at my mum's hp to know abt my brother....only when Kangwei reminded me, then I know...
I hate myself..I thought I'm a happy person. I thought I'm living my life very happily now. I thought I'm so lucky but I forgot that I have a brother, a real blood brother. My life is so screwed up...hate myself.......
SO...I took the lift up, set at my stairs and went into deep thoughts. I cried. After thinking through, I decided to msg my brother.
After hours, my brother finally replied me..I'm really happy...
sometimes, I really wished I could be there for him. I really miss him very much. No amount of words could express how much this sister here misses her brother...
but I'm really happy Kangwei talked to me today...hopefully I could meet up with my brother one day and hopefully I could persuade my Dad to let my brother come HOME..
shall end here...projects!!!
LASTLY, JUS WANNA SAY I LOVE U KOR!!! you will always and forever be my 1 and only KOR. No matter what happens to you, I love u for who u are....and I will always be there for u...
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