Monday, March 23, 2009
Partying is Fun!
I have so many pictures to upload but I will upload it when the time is riped!
Saturday partying at Firefly is great. Love my company and also the Live band there!
We did had fun, din we? This is what I call LIFE! Work work work work work but no life, what's the point.
It's good to party with people you feel comfortable with. We can gossip and bitch all we can, and no one can stop us. We are not refrain from talking or are being watched with many eyes. We simply can just be ourselves and do what we like. That's LIFE MAN!
Even if I have no job, no money, I don't f care because I prefer being Happy Joan. No one can stop me from being myself. No one can change me just because they feel I should be this way. I will be who I am, take it or leave it.
You only have 1 life! Don't live another person's life, live your own life.
Saturday partying at Firefly is great. Love my company and also the Live band there!
We did had fun, din we? This is what I call LIFE! Work work work work work but no life, what's the point.
It's good to party with people you feel comfortable with. We can gossip and bitch all we can, and no one can stop us. We are not refrain from talking or are being watched with many eyes. We simply can just be ourselves and do what we like. That's LIFE MAN!
Even if I have no job, no money, I don't f care because I prefer being Happy Joan. No one can stop me from being myself. No one can change me just because they feel I should be this way. I will be who I am, take it or leave it.
You only have 1 life! Don't live another person's life, live your own life.
joanie
08:46
08:46
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Too much drinking lately
I think my health is deteriorating due to too much drinking lately...
This week, I have been drinking since tuesday. best? 4 days in a row, plus today will be 5..
MUST STOP! It's an addiction
This week, I have been drinking since tuesday. best? 4 days in a row, plus today will be 5..
MUST STOP! It's an addiction
joanie
14:46
14:46
Friday, March 20, 2009
It's a boring friday!
I'm reading back on my entries. I sound so emo and depressed. But just to let people who reads my blog to know, Joan is fine and she will be fine...
There will always be ups and downs in life. I may be at my down period now but I know that this is what God wants me to go through. Most importantly, I'm not lonely.
BORING BORING BORING! It's really a boring friday. I need some life. I'm at work now, really doing nothing and really nothing.
I got a feeling she is just avoiding me. How long can you avoid me? Let's move on with life. Let's really not waste eachother's time.
Oh well, nevermind, don't care......
BEHOLD...... THE SUPER CHIO CAR!!!!
Tadaaa!!!..
This is my dream car.. Audi TT Roadster. Very not practical but I like it! Wondering wondering wondering, when will I be able to drive it.
Blog till here.
There will always be ups and downs in life. I may be at my down period now but I know that this is what God wants me to go through. Most importantly, I'm not lonely.
BORING BORING BORING! It's really a boring friday. I need some life. I'm at work now, really doing nothing and really nothing.
I got a feeling she is just avoiding me. How long can you avoid me? Let's move on with life. Let's really not waste eachother's time.
Oh well, nevermind, don't care......
BEHOLD...... THE SUPER CHIO CAR!!!!
Tadaaa!!!..
This is my dream car.. Audi TT Roadster. Very not practical but I like it! Wondering wondering wondering, when will I be able to drive it.
Blog till here.
joanie
14:57
14:57
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
I thought so...
I finally did it after so many days of suffering. I definitely feel more relieved and happy!
After doing it, I realised that I'm not that smart after all. I always thought I am. I always thought I can see through one's character and what they are thinking. I always thought so. But today, God has proven me wrong. I'm not that smart after all, God is. He is the one who gave me intelligence and he can take it away frome me anytime.
Oh well. I don't really care what's happening because I know no matter how lonely I am, I always have God with me. I feel so blessed by his presence and of coz feel so blessed that he gave me good and real friends to be there for me always.
Yep. blog till here. =) my nightmare is coming to an end pretty soon.
After every storm, a rainbow will eventually appear! =)
After doing it, I realised that I'm not that smart after all. I always thought I am. I always thought I can see through one's character and what they are thinking. I always thought so. But today, God has proven me wrong. I'm not that smart after all, God is. He is the one who gave me intelligence and he can take it away frome me anytime.
Oh well. I don't really care what's happening because I know no matter how lonely I am, I always have God with me. I feel so blessed by his presence and of coz feel so blessed that he gave me good and real friends to be there for me always.
Yep. blog till here. =) my nightmare is coming to an end pretty soon.
After every storm, a rainbow will eventually appear! =)
joanie
09:22
09:22
Friday, March 13, 2009
Courage
*You know what? I don't f**king care who reads my blog. I just wanna blog what I wanna blog. It's my blog anyway. I have the freedom to blog what I wanna blog and how I feel. I really don't care if there is gonna be any implications..*
I really need courage. Can someone give it to me?
I'm so tired of what I'm doing everyday. I hate what I'm doing. I feel so disgusted with my daily activities. I hate forcing people. I feel like a f**king slave to money, doing something I don't like...
I feel so controlled and it is far worse than being in school. Even now I have to blog secretly, being afraid people will see. I really miss my freedom and my carefree life. Why am I in such a state?
I wanna give up and I've made up my mind. But I just can't make the final move. It really really sucks and I feel like crying. Sigh...
I know God wants me to go through this and learn something from it but I really can't take it anymore. I really need courage and strength... I'm just left with the final step.
Please give me the strength to finish my final step...
I really need courage. Can someone give it to me?
I'm so tired of what I'm doing everyday. I hate what I'm doing. I feel so disgusted with my daily activities. I hate forcing people. I feel like a f**king slave to money, doing something I don't like...
I feel so controlled and it is far worse than being in school. Even now I have to blog secretly, being afraid people will see. I really miss my freedom and my carefree life. Why am I in such a state?
I wanna give up and I've made up my mind. But I just can't make the final move. It really really sucks and I feel like crying. Sigh...
I know God wants me to go through this and learn something from it but I really can't take it anymore. I really need courage and strength... I'm just left with the final step.
Please give me the strength to finish my final step...
joanie
10:00
10:00
Thursday, March 12, 2009
God has plans for me =)
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
I'm really really feeling very down lately. I really felt like crying many many times but I know I must be strong. This is a trial that God wants me to take on. I will be strong and overcome it. No matter how tough it is, I will do it. I won't let the obtacles paralyze me. God will clear the way for me and lead me to where he want me to be at.
=)
joanie
18:00
18:00
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I'm GLAD!
I'm glad I have God in my life, every single moment of my life, he is with me...
Without you God, I'm no one...
Without you God, I'm no one...
joanie
12:57
12:57
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
sad sad
It's 5.37am in the morning!
Joan is feeling very very very down...
I've not have this feeling for such a long time. Such a sucky feeling of being neglected.
Thank God, really! because I always have real and true friends around me. I can't ask for more right? Can't have the best out of 2 worlds.
"A real friend walks in, when the rest of the world walks out."
I'm feeling so down lately but the person whom I wanted to be there for me isn't there for me. I feel so sad.
Nevermind, I can endure, I can tolerate but there is always a limit to my patience. Maybe it won't even last till today or so. Who knows...
Joan is feeling very very very down...
I've not have this feeling for such a long time. Such a sucky feeling of being neglected.
Thank God, really! because I always have real and true friends around me. I can't ask for more right? Can't have the best out of 2 worlds.
"A real friend walks in, when the rest of the world walks out."
I'm feeling so down lately but the person whom I wanted to be there for me isn't there for me. I feel so sad.
Nevermind, I can endure, I can tolerate but there is always a limit to my patience. Maybe it won't even last till today or so. Who knows...
joanie
05:36
05:36
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Tired of Life
I really feel so so so very tired of life....
So many things are coming to me. I'm just a human, there is this much I can take.
I just hope I can really take a break from everything. No one to disturb me. No work to do. No one to bother about. I really wish I could just take a weekend off to Tioman and rest all by myself. Admiring the stars with just nothing on my mind.
I'm really tired of the reality world. Tired of doing the same old things everyday. Tired of making money. Tired of pleasing people around me.
But still, I won't stop. That's my life. I'm fated to live my life this way. I love money and money loves me. I'm workaholic, I must admit. I love entertainment, that's a fact.
I just really hope God will give me more energy to walk through my life smoothly. Give me the energy to walk through this economy crisis too. I will persevere and endure with all I can. That's why I am Joan. =)
I also hope everyone will persevere. Nothing comes easy in Life. No Pain, No Gain.
Before I end my entry. Would like to share this with everyone. It's written by Warran Buffet, everyone knows who he is.
Hard work: All hard work brings profit; but mere talk leads only to poverty.
Laziness: A sleeping lobster is carried away by the water current.
Earnings: Never depend on a single source of income.
Spending: If you buy things you don't need, you'll soon sell things you need.
Savings: Don't save what is left after spending; Spend what is left after saving.
Borrowings: The borrower becomes the lender's slave.
Accounting: It's no use carrying an umbrella, if your shoes are leaking.
Auditing: Beware of little expenses; a small leak can sink a large ship.
Risk-taking: Never test the depth of the river with both feet.
Investment: Don't put all your eggs in one basket.
Thanks Warran Buffet for this reminder. I've already woken up from my dreamland. I see things clearer than before. My mind is awake and I know what I need to do.
I'm lucky to always have angels around me to help me. Thanks. =) But I leave the decision to God.
So many things are coming to me. I'm just a human, there is this much I can take.
I just hope I can really take a break from everything. No one to disturb me. No work to do. No one to bother about. I really wish I could just take a weekend off to Tioman and rest all by myself. Admiring the stars with just nothing on my mind.
I'm really tired of the reality world. Tired of doing the same old things everyday. Tired of making money. Tired of pleasing people around me.
But still, I won't stop. That's my life. I'm fated to live my life this way. I love money and money loves me. I'm workaholic, I must admit. I love entertainment, that's a fact.
I just really hope God will give me more energy to walk through my life smoothly. Give me the energy to walk through this economy crisis too. I will persevere and endure with all I can. That's why I am Joan. =)
I also hope everyone will persevere. Nothing comes easy in Life. No Pain, No Gain.
Before I end my entry. Would like to share this with everyone. It's written by Warran Buffet, everyone knows who he is.
Hard work: All hard work brings profit; but mere talk leads only to poverty.
Laziness: A sleeping lobster is carried away by the water current.
Earnings: Never depend on a single source of income.
Spending: If you buy things you don't need, you'll soon sell things you need.
Savings: Don't save what is left after spending; Spend what is left after saving.
Borrowings: The borrower becomes the lender's slave.
Accounting: It's no use carrying an umbrella, if your shoes are leaking.
Auditing: Beware of little expenses; a small leak can sink a large ship.
Risk-taking: Never test the depth of the river with both feet.
Investment: Don't put all your eggs in one basket.
Thanks Warran Buffet for this reminder. I've already woken up from my dreamland. I see things clearer than before. My mind is awake and I know what I need to do.
I'm lucky to always have angels around me to help me. Thanks. =) But I leave the decision to God.
joanie
11:18
11:18