*You know what? I don't f**king care who reads my blog. I just wanna blog what I wanna blog. It's my blog anyway. I have the freedom to blog what I wanna blog and how I feel. I really don't care if there is gonna be any implications..*I really need courage. Can someone give it to me?
I'm so tired of what I'm doing everyday. I hate what I'm doing. I feel so disgusted with my daily activities. I hate forcing people. I feel like a f**king slave to money, doing something I don't like...
I feel so controlled and it is far worse than being in school. Even now I have to blog secretly, being afraid people will see. I really miss my freedom and my carefree life. Why am I in such a state?
I wanna give up and I've made up my mind. But I just can't make the final move. It really really sucks and I feel like crying. Sigh...
I know God wants me to go through this and learn something from it but I really can't take it anymore. I really need courage and strength... I'm just left with the final step.
Please give me the strength to finish my final step...
