I'm sick again. Sigh...
I'm really physically & mentally tired and I don't know what to do. I've never been so down in my whole life. I know God wants me to learn to be a stronger woman but it's really so tough and I'm really breaking down...
Sometimes I really just feel like throwing everything aside and leave this world to meet my dearest God in Heaven. But don't worry, I won't do it. It's too irresponsible for me to do that. There are so many people in this world who loves me a lot and I can't let them down... Haiz..
I really really hate myself now. Sorry but I'm so emo in my blog again. No one likes to read emo blog I know but I just want a place to vent all my frustration out. It's tiring to act in front of everyone that I'm strong and I'm happy. No matter how strong I am in my mind, I'm still a weak girl inside.
I really hope everything will come to an end soon. I want to be the happy Joan I used to be. I want a brand new life...
ok..blog till here. I must be strong. I must be strong!
